Suddenly Silent Creations

Update

2008-08-08T07:33:00.002-04:00

I just wanted to stop in and give you all an update on me. It has been a rough 2 weeks on me, firstly finding out that I had another miscarriage on the 28th, and on top of it Jonathan's Birthday being yesterday. Then the start of meds that are supposed to help balance out the chemical changes that my body is going through with the miscarriage and all the other everyday things that I have to live with now. Well we didnt get to do what we had planned yesterday because I just didnt feel like crawling out of bed.

Tonight we will be going to my grandmother's house and are doing a balloon release as well as a candle light visual in honor of his life that was taken so soon after his birth due to SIDS. I really can not believe it has been a year already, but hey it has, and he is in Heaven having a wonderful Birthday!

The day went smoother for me than I thought, I didnt cry not one time after waking, but I have to admit that I did cry when I got home and was writing on myspace to my family! I am doing great under the circumstances, and I wanted you all to know that! I will be working on a couple new kits while I am out tonight and I will have them out as soon as possible!

Keep on the look out cause I will post them as soon as I can. I hope you are all doing well, and Sorry again for being out for so long, Just havent Been in the right state of mind to do anything with all that has been going on, and well Since I was started on meds, Things have been turning a little at a time towards helping me out. Hope you all have a great weekend, will talk to you all again soon as I have a letter I need to write for the balloon release tonight!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

New Layout

2008-07-24T14:11:00.002-04:00

Well I couldnt resist myself, I was out buying a couple things last night and I just had to purchase Missy's kit Lilac Dreams over at Scrapping Whispers. This one I mainly threw together in a couple minutes, but I do plan on going to make some more out of the kit as there are so many ideas going through my head with what I could do.

I had to buy the kit cause well Glenn's birthday is on the 21st of August and he has been asking me to make him a tag for the longest and well I still haven't, so That is part of my present to him. Just for what I am making him, I felt that this was the best kit, and well Missy is a great friend, so I had to buy her kit =)

I hope you all enjoy! Will be back hopefully one more time before I have to go to work.

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

To Purchase this kit go to Scrapping Whispers
To see Missy's Freebie kits Please visit her Blog Autistic Inspirations

New Commercial Use Freebies

2008-07-24T13:47:00.003-04:00

I was in the process of trying to make a background that I wanted to use for something, and completely distracting myself away from that is this project here... I started the first one, and well it went on and on from there! LOL I hope you all Enjoy, Will be back in a Few!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Mini Kit... Flower'd Up

2008-07-21T01:56:00.005-04:00

Well here is the next one I have finished... I decided to make it on the smaller side though. This one is called Flowered up because I was in a mood for flowers. LOL I hope you all like, and I will be back with some more after I sleep some. Hope you all enjoy!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Kit....A Day in the Garden

2008-07-20T21:59:00.001-04:00

Ok well this one is well FUN to me =) I hope you all enjoy it. Spent most of last night and today making this, and well I like the results. Not all elements are shown. Time to go work on something NEW for ya's!! Enjoy!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Layouts

2008-07-19T15:31:00.004-04:00

Well here are two more that I have made with Missy's Snips & Snails kit. Be Sure to stop by her site to check out more of her Freebies! Autistic Inspirations

This one includes pictures of my mom, my son, Myself, and Glenn My Fiance

This layout has a picture of myself and Jonathan, my angel!

I hope you all enjoy these layouts, and well to see more of Missy's work, run on over to Autistic Inspirations for her freebies, or Scrapping Whispers to see the kits she has up for sale.

New Layout's

2008-07-19T14:41:00.004-04:00

Well ya know, I am kind of excited about the results of this, and well I am glad to say that both Kits used are from Autistic Inspirations

I find it a joy working with her Kits, and well whether it is tagging or making Layouts, I just can not get away from them! So lets get on to more information about each of the kits.

This layout was made from the kit "Elegant Dreams" and I especially love the kit because it is more neutral colors. I used Pictures of my Angel on this layout.

In this layout, I use a kit that is an ECLUSIVE and can be obtained by joining Missy and My Group @ Dysfunctional Scraps Yahoo group. The turn out I just love, and well in case you havent figured it out, there are pictures of myself, my mother and my son used in this one.
I hope you all enjoy these layouts, and well to see more of Missy's work, run on over to Autistic Inspirations for her freebies, or Scrapping Whispers to see the kits she has up for sale.

New Kit

2008-07-18T03:49:00.002-04:00

Well here is one I worked on for a while tonight, and I like the outcome. I only hope that you all like it as well! It all started out by me picking a wrong color for something, and I ended up getting curious as to what I could do with that color since I ran into it. Hope you all enjoy!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Another New Kit

2008-07-16T17:41:00.002-04:00

Well here is another kit I came up with dont really know what was to come out of this... but hey this is where my imagination took me lol I hope you all enjoy this one!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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The Bird's & The Bee's Kit

2008-07-16T03:00:00.003-04:00

Well here we are... A new Kit.. and well Yeah I guess I am good... My right arm is still a little sore from where it went through the glass pane in my back door Monday when I slipped in the kitchen. Yeah well It is healing fine, and well Yeah my window got fixed fast!

So about the kit... It is saved in .PNG format, as will be the rest of my kits... I hope you all enjoy this kit, as I had a good time making it!!

Hugs,

MommytoanAngel

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First Award

2008-07-10T14:20:00.002-04:00

I got this from Monica and Lorna over at Simply Sensational Scraps thanks ladies Hugs

Now I must pass it on to 7 Blogs:

I choose -
AutisticInspirations

New tags

2008-07-09T04:52:00.003-04:00

Well I wanted to make some letter holders, but somehow I ended up with tags lol... I like them though. I hope you all enjoy them, I am off to create something else, maybe a kit cause I had tons of ideas mailed to me LOL

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Tag made w/ SIDS Kit

2008-07-09T03:57:00.003-04:00

Well here is a tag I made while I was still in the process of making the kit... Oh course I used my lil man in it, but The thing is that the word needs to get out to all the many people in the world who know nothing about SIDS. I hope you all enjoy seeing!
Huggies,
MommytoanAngel

SIDS Awareness Kit.... and a Venting

2008-07-09T03:42:00.003-04:00

Ok well if this is long, then I am sorry. Losing my first born child to SIDS has really effected me, and well making 90% of this kit with my drawing tool and different effects, and spending about 2 days on this, I am still not sure that I am ready to release this. Monday the 7th would have made Jonathan 11 months old and well it still hurts...

I am 22 years old, and sad to say every morning when I wake, I just dont want to be here any more because I feel VERY incomplete without him here to hold and enjoy life with.
I made this kit... and well now that I am in tears, I have to say that it was truely inspired by the love that I will always have for my little man. I hope you all can use this kit, Like I said, not sure that this is all I wanted to put in the kit, but for now it is because with the time coming fast towards the 1 yr b-day I can not focus on this kit any longer. I may do a mini kit later on, or do some more add ons with in a little more time, but for now I have to say that I am pleased!

Hope you all enjoy.

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Butterflys

2008-07-09T03:29:00.002-04:00

Well here is the latest creation... Not to sure how I feel about this one, well I like it but not to sure if this is what I was looking for or not LOL I hope you all can find good use for them, I am actually in the process of making a tag with them myself, I will post the end results when I have completed it!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Glitterfly's

2008-07-09T03:12:00.003-04:00

OK well I made these a day or so ago, and well I wasnt ready to zip them up and release them cause I thought there were more I was going to add to it. It turned out that I couldnt get them to look right so I decided to release these and when I get the other ones to turn out the way I was trying to get them, I will release those seperate. I hope you all like, and if there is a color that I am missing that you want or need let me know and I will get it made.

Hope you all enjoy these!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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I'Ve Been Tagged

2008-07-01T16:26:00.005-04:00

I've been tagged like three times now... I was tagged by...

Missy - Autistic Inspirations (twice)

and

Vicki - Shutterbug Scraps

Rules:

1.Link your tagger and list these rules on your blog.

2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.

3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.

4. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Ok Here it goes...

1. When I have a "Bad Day" I cuddle with one of Jonathan's Blankets and listen to kiddie songs and it helps make me calm down and feel conforted.

2. My Favorite sandwich is Turkey and Cheese... this is how it is made... Put mustard on one side of the bread, put 2 pieces of turkey a slice of cheese, two more pieces of turkey, TONS of PICKLES, two more pieces of Turkey, then the second piece of bread

3. I work till about 2 am then I come home and sit on the computer for the most part of 5 hours. What I do I am not sure half the time I don't remember myself.

4. Since Jonathan passed, I find it hard to talk to you in person, but get me on the phone or computer and I could talk you to death!

5. I have 3 furbabies, 2 cats who get to be annoying for the most part, and 1 chihuahua who acts like a human child. She sleeps with us in the bed, and well she curls up with me just like a little baby!

6. I LOVE country Music... I was born and raised on it, and although you might catch me listening to other stuff... I always turn back to COUNTRY!

7. When I was pregnant with Jonathan, I couldnt keep anything in my system... I had to be put on medicine to keep food and liquids down... and that just made it Worse!

People who I am tagging!

1. Mirella @ Scrapity Scrap and More

2. Clarey @ Clarey's Designs

3. Yvette @ Misfits Scraps

4. Melissa @ Sentimental Style

5. Lou @ Simply Devilish Scrapz

6. Monica & Lorna @ Simply Sensational Scraps

7. Lisa @ Sophisticated Scraps

Girly Twinkle

2008-07-01T16:15:00.003-04:00

OK well here is one of the two kits that I lost last night... Something happened with my program and it closed on me and when I tried opening the sved files it would let them, so when I woke up I started back on it. The colors are slightly different than before, but I like it like this! I hope you all find some good use for it!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Beaded Words

2008-07-01T01:58:00.004-04:00

Well I created this and well I honestly don't know what the incentive was... I just typed the first words on mind and this is what I got... LOL I did something a little different as I will with all of my creations... I included PNG and PSPIMAGE in the Zip File.. I will work on the past creations as soon as possible... If you need one in particular faster than I can get it posted, let me know so I can work on that one right away! Hope you all enjoy these.

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Alpha's w/ 3 Colors

2008-07-01T00:09:00.003-04:00

Well here goes my newest thing... I don't know why, but for some reason I was inspired to creat alpha's and I did! There are Blue Pink and Purple. I hope you all can enjoy these... Will be working on the next of my releases here soon, and hopefully will get it out to you tonight!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

Download the Baby Blue Alpha's Here

Download Pink Alpha's Here

Download Purple Alpha's Here

Country Word Art

2008-06-29T03:18:00.003-04:00

Well you know after 2 long days of work, and 1 more to go as of right now, I come home to some relaxing music that I grew up on. I may live in Orlando, but please don't let that fool you LOL I am nothing but a country gal at heart, and believe me there are times that it gets me into TROUBLE... LoL

Well anyways, I laid in bed for about an hour and a half and couldn't fall asleep (weird cause I am flippin tired) and something came upon me to get up and do word art. Well when I couldnt think of anything else to write... I decided to give you all a few of my Favorites from the songs I was listening to.. (not all of them cause there are 100 songs playing)! I hope there are some country hearted fans out there cause well this is all I could come up with at the time.

I will be back tomorrow after work with some more for you. I hope you all have a wonderful day! I will try not to work too hard, and I will be off for a few days this coming weekend, so I will let you all know as soon as I am here for my break with lots of releases!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Kit and A venting...

2008-06-28T13:57:00.003-04:00

Well here it goes... As of right now I will have 33 hours in 3 days. I worked 13 hours last night... and well I am turning around to go back now. I have another 10 hour shift to work and I am exhausted!
Ok I am saving you all from something you have no idea what it is about, so I hope you all can enjoy the New Kit I have made. It is called Glittery Fun because Just about everything in it has glitter... I hope you all enjoy!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Update and First CU Freebie

2008-06-26T01:16:00.003-04:00

Ok I promise you I wont do this much, but I have a lot on my mind. I am late.. if you know what I mean... and well for those that don't, there is a chance that I am prego again... for the first time since losing Jonathan to SIDS. Just the thought of it is freaking me out because all that I can think of is "If I am pregnant, when the baby is born am I going to go through all the same things that I did with Jonathan? Will I lose this one to SIDS as well?" It is hard and I am trying to keep my cool and stay calm about it all.

I will bring you all to a little light, I am 22 years old and well I lost my first born at the age of 21. Hence the name of my blog, creations, tagging name, Nickname, All of the above. After suddenly losing my son at the age of 2 months 20 days, I became silent. I do not talk much to people unless it is on the net, or the phone, possibly because I don't have to look them in the eyes and feel like they look at me differently because I lost my son.

I sometimes feel like I am treated differently because people know that I lost my son, and sometimes I feel like people blame me for his passing. Well I know that my in-laws do blame me because he was in the bed with me! What was I supposed to do, I nursed him and that is what the nurse at the hospital told me to do! She said it would be easier for me and baby when the late night feedings came.

Well no matter what, I will not change a thing with any future children I have due to the reasoning it was not my fault. I was actually starting to break him from my bed, and started the night before we found him. And that will be the same age that any more children we have will be broken from our bed.

But anyway, the thing I am worried about is how I will make it through the pregnancy (if I am) with all the stress of worrying about all these thoughts that are coming to my head. I do not want to go through this again, I was in shock for about 2 weeks, and then when it hit... it hit hard, and that cause me some health problems. It lead to me being in pain physically and I spent the most part of January in the hospital because of gall stones, and an infection in my gall bladder. Well that lead to me having my gall bladder removed. I'm really worried that things will be hard on me and that I will be comparing everything to the things I saw Jonathan doing, and I don't want to do that because Jonathan will still be here with us in spirit even with a new baby.

Sorry I just needed to get that off my chest, and hopefully you have made it this far.... There is something that I made and well I decided to make it a CU Freebie. I hope you all enjoy it, or can find a new way to use it! It is an overlay, and well I took the time place each and every heart that you see! I will be back soon with something else for you all!!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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New Element

2008-06-25T01:50:00.002-04:00

Well I was playing around... here are the results. I liked what I made and hopefully some of you can use them! Still not finished though... have tons more on my mind and I am going to see if I can get anything out of it LOL I hope you all enjoy and until next post wish me luck =)

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Again another New Mini Kit

2008-06-25T00:55:00.002-04:00

I have been humming "Gob Bless America" for who knows how long today, and well I decided that I was going to make a mini 4th of July kit, and note that this one took me the longest... I started this one first but took my time as I made the Flag using selections, and then colored accordingly. Then I got side tracked and that is where the other two kits came in. I hope you all enjoy this one... I am off to work on some more things... LOL

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel Download Here

Another New Mini Kit

2008-06-24T23:57:00.002-04:00

Well here is the baby girl kit that I have made to kind of go along with the lil boy kit that I posted previously. I hope you all enjoy it, and I am off to go finish the third one that is already in the works!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel Download Here

New Mini Kit

2008-06-24T21:17:00.002-04:00

Well it has been one of those days where I have tons of ideas flowing through my head... here is the first of three mini kits that I am releasing (as of right now it is only 3). There are 2 frames, two bows and 3 papers... I hope you enjoy and I will be back shortly with another one!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Graduation Mini Kit...

2008-06-19T10:58:00.002-04:00

Well here it is... my first mini kit... something that came to mind when I was thinking about all the different things I could do with Just a few items at one time... only took about 30 minutes to get this one cause it instantly came to mind when I was thinking about my graduations (high school and college) as well as all of the cousin's that I have that have graduated... and that are on their way to graduation! Well I hope you all like and well... look for more soon!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Update and Pinks & Purples Freebie

2008-06-18T22:24:00.003-04:00

Well I am not sure where I have been but it has been hectic for me here lately! Between working, and enjoying my days off, I am just plain ol' tired all the time. Well not to mention that my days off aren't really days off because I never get to really enjoy the whole day being off. It's either house work that has to be done, or laundry so we have clean clothes... LOL!

Well anyways, here is a kit that I have been working on for about a week, and I am just now getting it finished because I finally got the time to sit here and finish the rest of the things I wanted to put in the kit. Well I hope that you all enjoy, and there will be some mini kits coming out soon... so keep an eye out for them!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Bows Galore!!

2008-06-11T02:27:00.003-04:00

Well I don't know why but I got in a mood to make bows last night, and well I did just that! I made 5 sets of bows, some with glitter, some without, and some wow I just don't know what happened to me! I havent been able to make a kit because I just have been having a few personal problems and can't seem to think about what kind of kit I really want to make. So I am in the process of writing out a kit and things I would like to see in this kit, and well all of your inputs would be greatly appreciated! Below are the links to the bow sets, and although it doesn't look like all the previews are showing the bows and glitter bows, there are I belive 3 of them that have the glitter... Hope you all enjoy!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

BOWS PT 01

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BOWS PT 02

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BOWS PT 03

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BOWS PT 04

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BOWS PT 05

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Late Surprise...

2008-06-05T21:36:00.004-04:00

OK well I am late, but I thought I had this posted already. I have been really sick and well I just realized that it didnt post. Sorry guys!

My friend, Missy of Autistic Inspirations, and I have been planning on opening our scrapping space group. Well it is finally here. I would like to announce the Grand Opening of our yahoo group, Dysfunctional Scraps. Dysfunctional Scraps will be a place where we can update people on new freebies on our blogs, Autistic Inspirations and Suddenly Silent Creations Scraps. Also we will be giving out exclusive member only treats as well. Participation is definitely not required or expected. We hope to see you there.

Huggies,
Jennifer and Missy

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Music Notes

2008-06-05T09:25:00.002-04:00

Well here is what happens when I am just sitting here thinking about my past. I spent over 3 years in the band, and well When I got to thinking This is what I used to do in all my books with notes... I would color them the way I wanted to when I would be bored. Needless to say I was banned from using that book during class, But hey I got a brand new one, and it was harder at that! LOL I miss being in school and doing marching band and all the great things that came with it! Hope you all enjoy!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Gel Cap Letters

2008-06-05T07:57:00.002-04:00

I wasnt really in a mood to make anything big or something that was going to be time consuming last night because I have been really sick the last few days. My Wedding had to be rescheduled, and well I have just felt like crap all around. I know for a fact I am fighting against my old ritual of bronchitus /Pnuemonia, but this is day 4 I have been taking Amoxicillian for it so hoping that I get better. I can not sleep so I am hoping that you all will have more goodies to browse upon as the day passes. I feel tired but laying in bed I cant close my eyes or do anything other than toss and turn.

Well away from the story of what I have been up to and feeling, I started playing around last night with a new toy and here is my creation.... Gel Letters... And since blue is my Fav color, that is the color I decided to do them in. I hope you all enjoy them and Please let me know what you think of them as I would love some feed back!

Huggies,

MommytoanAngel

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Baby Boy Kit

2008-05-29T18:48:00.001-04:00

Ok well I had inspiration to do something and upon sitting and pondering things that I could to I came up with this... It is one of my smaller kits, and well I think it turned out nicely. Hope you all find some good uses to this!

MommytoanAngel

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Updated TOU

2008-05-29T16:22:00.003-04:00

Just posting the updated TOU for everyone.. I will always keep them posted if something were to change. They will be in the kits from here on forward, but I will not have them in the downloads for anything that has already had downloads cause I like being able to see all the downloads to know what you all like!!

MommytoanAngel

Sun Moon Stars Kit

2008-05-28T10:31:00.003-04:00

Ok well I started off with these colors... Blue Red Purple Black... and some how I got off track and well yeah here is what has become.

Hugs,

MommytoanAngel

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Lil Boy Wordart

2008-05-27T17:31:00.005-04:00

Well I was playing around earlier thinking about my lil man, and well I decided to turn some of the things I was saying into wordart. Hope you all can enjoy them!

Hugs,

MommytoanAngel

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Hearts... My baby boy

2008-05-27T04:24:00.002-04:00

Well today makes it 7 months that my lil man has been up in heaven... It is one of those days, let alone each and everyday I wake up not wanting to be here cause I just want to be with him. Things are rough and I miss his little hands and feet so much. I am trying to hold myself together because I need to stay strong.

I decided to make something but I cant tell you that I was inspired by anything other than the love I have for my angel. I miss him so much, and well I dont know that I will ever be the same again. I used to be a person that would sit here and talk to anyone non stop for hours and hours on end, but since my lil man passed I have suddenly became silent. I do not talk very much any more unless I am needing a shoulder to cry on or I need help doing things. Well and my job because I work in a drive thru, and well that is all I do is talk.
I feel lost, and well this somewhat calms me down and then again it makes me think about all the things I could be doing with my son. Friends and family understand to an extent, but they dont fully understand the Hell that I face each and every morning when I wake up. I wake up wishing that I were not here because I do not want to face another day without the lil man that I came to love so much.

Sorry this became a vent, I just needed to get this off my chest. I luv you all and thank all the ones that are here for me when I need you! Hope you enjoy the Hearts...

MommytoanAngel

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Stroller Stickers

2008-05-27T04:21:00.002-04:00

Here is the last one that I did last night after work... I was playing around and decided that I liked the stroller buttons and well I made it into stickers... I hope you all enjoy them!!

MommytoanAngel

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Stroller Buttons

2008-05-27T04:14:00.002-04:00

Well here is the next one!! Download HERE

Colored Lights

2008-05-27T04:10:00.005-04:00

I was sitting here last night and I was playing around... well the next 3 posts will have the things that I made... Just thought they would be something that some one would like to use, just little things I made while trying to clear out my head. Hope you all can Enjoy them!

MommytoanAngel

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Glass Candy

2008-05-26T04:12:00.008-04:00

It has been a long couple of days for me, and tonight I came home to find myself sitting here making different things... Tomorrow will be 7 months that I have been with out my angel that is in Heaven and things are real tough. I been trying to keep my head clear... but it didnt work so here is what has become. I hope you can find use of them, and in the mean time I will continue to hold my head up High and do my best to continue my stride forward.

MommytoanAngel

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My Terms of Use

2008-05-18T20:12:00.005-04:00

I just thought I would make a post to let you all know what my Terms of Use are. If you have any questions please don't hesitate to contact me at SuddenlySilentCreations@gmail.com

Please click on the preview to see a bigger picture.

Autism...

2008-05-18T02:19:00.001-04:00

Well to be honest, I have ran into some situations where I am to deal with Families with Autistic children. I myself have personally helped one of my customers from a previous job in a way that she felt no one could do, I was the first person bring a smile to her sons face. He was a 2 year old autistic boy, an let me tell you he loved his portable DVD player and his Baby Einstien (sp?) movies. He would bring them everyday when he would come for breakfest when I was working. I really miss that little boy, He touched my life.

To add to it... I then met Missy, yeah well she is the main reason I had the idea to make this kit here... This took some tremedious time as I am still learning all the nicks about scrapping, but I think it turned out great as to only be my second kit! Missy Dear I hope you enjoy this Kit here.... I spent about 3 days making this one for you. Please leave comments after downloading.

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Star Kit...

2008-05-18T02:02:00.000-04:00

Well here it is... the First Kit I made.. I have had this one completed for a while now, But without the net at home I am limited to when I am able to log on. I am working full time, and well between that and no internet I feel abandoned. I am hoping to get it back here soon, but for now I will work on kits, Work my job, and post them when I can. I hope you all enjoy this one... Leave me comments when you download please!

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